Just finding my place in this world
This is going to be extremely complicated but I need unbiased advice. So I have my guy best friend, Trey, and we’ve been friends for about 7 years. In July we started to become super close. We became friends with benefits and it was super good. We were with our friend group everyday, but then I realized I was starting to fall for him. So I texted the two other girls in our group, Amelia and Kaitlyn. They were like sisters. But Kaitlyn was the one who told me we would figure it out because Trey didn’t do relationships and I didn’t wanna get my heart broken. So the next day we all went to Kaitlyn’s house and throughout the whole day we were tryna figure shit out; they wouldn’t let me be alone to think to myself. They then came up with the idea “I didn’t like him I just liked the attention I was getting from him” and ignored the rest of my feelings. Later that night I had fallen asleep on his lap and woke up to Kaitlyn making out with him. I had a mental breakdown and they just acted like it was nothing. Mind you the night before we had hooked up. Three days later they got into a relationship and I was left to be supportive of their relationship and hide all my feelings. Throughout their relationship Trey and I have had moments even days where we’re just caught up with each other. I get told by all my friends and family (before I even said I liked him) that him and I have more of a connection that him and Kaitlyn do. But I stood by and stayed patient. But last night he was drunk and texted me a lot of shit, like flirting and all, but still is staying with her. and he asked me “did you ever lose attraction to me?” And I said “no I never lost attraction. I’m still so into you but I’m good at hiding my emotions and true feelings. All I want is you but I can’t have you” and he was in shock I then told him in a friend way not a alternative motive way that their relationship isn’t working out and that’s up to him to decide but they never text/FaceTime/talk, he only sees her on the weekends and that’s always not guaranteed, he talks about how he wishes he could be with other girls etc. I told him it’s just not their time. I know this makes him sound like an asshole but I know he isn’t. He’s the most caring person, he has always protected me and looked after me. He has stayed by me when I needed him most. He is my world. But now he’s being distant from me and our friend Ethan (who is his best friend) who agrees him and I would be better and is going to talk to him about his relationship. I don’t even know if he remembers last night because he was drunk... but at this point idk what to do. I use to care about Kaitlyn but she has done so much shit to me that at this moment I just wanna focus on my happiness and his...