I am 17 years old. I started babysitting for a couple when I was 13 and after a couple of years I got a serious crush on the guy. He's in his mid-30's. A few months ago I started giving him little hints hoping he would notice. One night as he was taking me home he commented that I had grown to be a pretty young lady so I quickly told him he wasn't bad himself. He immediately ask if I would like to get together sometime so I told him yes. A few days later he call wanting me to meet him that evening. He took me to dinner then wanted to know if I would like to go somewhere and spend some more time together. Hoping he meant doing more I quickly agreed. He drove to the Holiday Inn and got a room. He didn't rush into anything so I kissed him and we started making out. It didn't take long for the clothes to come off with him giving some awesome foreplay. When he rolled over on top of me he hadn't put a condom on so told him he should probably use one. He said he didn't have one starting in me so I told him I was ok with it but that he needed to know i wasn't on birth control.. Nothing else was aid so I had my first experience of going all the way. It was definitely exciting. Now he wants to get together again. I don't want to turn him down or ruin the mood when we get together. If he doesn't have a condom I know I'll take another chance. Sholud I tell him to bring one and risk the chance he won't see me again?